{"id":802,"date":"2010-08-28T16:27:01","date_gmt":"2010-08-28T13:27:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/?p=802"},"modified":"2010-08-28T16:27:01","modified_gmt":"2010-08-28T13:27:01","slug":"ex-porn-actress-shizimmy-writes-about-love-loathing-lulu-ayano-%e5%90%8d%e5%89%8d%e3%81%ae%e3%81%aa%e3%81%84%e5%a5%b3%e3%81%9f%e3%81%a1","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/?p=802","title":{"rendered":"Ex porn actress, Shizimmy writes about "Love & Loathing & Lulu & Ayano" – \u540d\u524d\u306e\u306a\u3044\u5973\u305f\u3061"},"content":{"rendered":"

Distance with the women<\/strong><\/p>\n

I watched \u201cLove & Loathing & Lulu & Ayano<\/a><\/em>(\u540d\u524d\u306e\u306a\u3044\u5973\u305f\u3061<\/a><\/em>\uff09<\/em><\/strong>\u201d again on the screen. This time, I started crying the moment the film started, and the tears kept flowing. What were the tears for? One is because my thoughts for porn are too strong. Another reason is, I think, the story seemed completely non-fiction, and it felt like I was listening to a porn actress friend telling me her stories. In the silence of the movie theater, there was a ritualistic atmosphere that made everything click in synch.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s been almost two years since I retired from porn movies. It\u2019s about time I objectively start seeing what those four years were. The things I found and the things I lost. Maybe I can finally find the answer! I watched the movie with such hope in mind.<\/p>\n

\u201cDo you have a dream?\u201d \u201cAre you enjoying life?\u201d<\/p>\n

By appearing in porn films, anybody can escape reality. The void in their hearts can be filled.<\/p>\n

As a porn actress, you just have to empty your mind and keep running with your eyes closed.<\/p>\n

That way, anybody can easily transform.<\/p>\n

Without having to say a word, choosing the occupation as a porn actress is an answer in itself and becomes a set of beliefs.<\/p>\n

Could I have transformed without choosing to become a porn actress? Perhaps I am, in fact, cheating.<\/p>\n

I cheated and tried to find the answer but couldn\u2019t.<\/p>\n

But Lulu said, \u201cThey\u2019re all you!\u201d<\/p>\n

When I heard that, those words seemed to be reflecting my future, and I realized I\u2019ll always be a \u201cwoman without a name,\u201d which made me mildly hopeless but at the same time a bit hopeful in that I am going to continue this anyway! It\u2019s going to continue.<\/p>\n

And Norie Yasui, who played the main character.<\/p>\n

What possessed her the moment she started living her life\u2026 I don\u2019t have psychic powers but I saw it clearly\u2606<\/p>\n

Shizimmy<\/a><\/strong> (actress)<\/p>\n

From 2004 to 2008, under the name \u201cAkane Mochida,\u201d she appeared in close to 200 porn films as a true \u201cM\u201d actress who did everything she was asked to onscreen. In 2009, she changed her stage name to \u201cShizimmy,\u201d which means \u201cfreshwater clam,\u201d a specialty of Shimane Prefecture where her hometown is located. Currently, she appears in V Cinema and pink films. She is one of the indispensable supporting actresses in Jojo films, and her latest films include Hell Driver<\/em><\/strong> (Nikkatsu) directed by Yoshihiro Nishimura and Poltergeist (LEONE)<\/em><\/strong> directed by Naoyuki Tomomatsu.<\/p>\n

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Distance with the women I watched \u201cLove & Loathing & Lulu & Ayano(\u540d\u524d\u306e\u306a\u3044\u5973\u305f\u3061\uff09\u201d again on the screen. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3,6,9,11],"tags":[22,86,94,118,134,136,159,176,180,211,234,386,387,419,447,476,480,486,548,622],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/802"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=802"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/802\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=802"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=802"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/makotoyacoltd.jp\/wordpress\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=802"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}